Moving Beyond the Rear View Mirror

2026! This is going to be the year that everything changes right? I don't know about you, but I am going into year 2 of waiting for God to say, "This is the year that everything comes together, and you realize what I have been doing all along". Who am I kidding? I have been asking God to say those words for years. I always tend to look back and wish I could have done things differently. I wish I could go back in time and make different choices. Ones that could have been better for my present and future. I always look back at my mistakes. They are neon signs blaring "FAILURE". I wouldn't change where I am in this life with my husband or my children & grandchildren. I love my family. However, I always look at how I've failed in this life with them and those around me. Are you like me and make it difficult to allow anyone in? I know that this has to be the year that the walls come tumbling down. This is the year that I let go of fear and embrace all that God has for me regardless of whether hurt and pain comes in along the journey. I am starting to realize that the fear of rejection and abandonment has done exactly just that. It's allowed rejection and abandonment to follow me due to not allowing anyone in. I've created that which I fear the most!

My husband always reminds me to live in the present and stop living in the past. I look back with such regret and shame. I've worked so hard to move past it all. I truly have. Even typing this brings a heaviness that I feel to my core. 2026 is going to be the year! It is going to be the year I walk into my own. I walk into what God has for me and stop trying to recoup what He has taken away from me for a reason. I have always mentored women with the words "Rejection is God's protection". However, I haven't listened to my own words. But it is time to move past what I thought my future would be in employment, what people I would bring with me along the way and what success truly means.

So that's where this blog begins. It is living in today and stop looking in the rearview mirror in what I cannot change no matter how much I want it to. I dislike the word "resolutions". I think it needs to be "declarations". My husband tells people that they need to stand in front of the mirror and put their hands on their hips and tell themselves how amazing they are. I joke with him and say he looks like Captain Underpants to me. But he is the most positive person I've met. He conquers everything with a positive attitude knowing that it will all work out one way or another. He has it figured out! And that is what I want to obtain this upcoming year.

So what should you expect in this blog? Alot of honesty. I will be raw and real. I am currently struggling with thyroid issues. I am having surgery in a few weeks to get it removed. I am scared of the outcome. But what I am certain of is that not only do I need to work on changing mentally, but physically as well. I need to change the way I eat and get back to exercising. I also want to connect with God on a deeper level. I know that none of this will be done perfectly. It is going to be trial and error. But I will take you with me along the way.

What are your declarations for the year? What are you going to declare over yourself? What words are you going to speak over yourself when you look in the mirror? Let's figure them out together! Hope you will join me and allow this year to be our year!